8/1/2025:
im back!!! yay!!!!

hello neocities!! sorry for my sudden absense...

my mental health hasnt been the greatest and i havent had much motivation at all. i've had to go through some tough things these past few months, but im starting to feel a bit better now :)

i hungout with a friend from highschool a few days ago, itd been quite a while since i met up with anyone but it went better than expected. no offense to them, i just have a tandency to be weird and awkward when speaking out loud with real people...

i also spoke to an old friend today!! she seems to be doing quite well and its been nice to message with them again :3

nothing else of note has really happened since my last blog (nothing id like to share anyways), but i should be getting my ID soon so i can FINALLY get a job and spend then money ive had on my card for years

i may change the layout of this page soon. its starting to hurt my eyes...

anyways, thats all for tonight. im off to explore the web!!!

5/20/2025:
our power is back!!!

our power came back on a day or two ago, but we still have no internet so i havent been able to update the site much...

we actually lost power again today, but only for about an hour thankfully

my sister also graduated today!!! i dont want to share her life story since its not mine to share, but i will say that shits been rough for her for YEARS now and shes finally happier, healthier, and now has her GED :)

the ceremony itself was quite overwhelming for me, and my mother bringing a shit ton of poppers and noise makers did not help (whatever happened to just clapping normally?). my sister understands me pretty well and she knew that my annoyed face wasnt because i didnt care or wasnt proud of her, i just wasnt really enjoying all the noise. my family members kept touching and hugging me as well, for some reason they never seem to remember that i really dislike nonconsensual hugs.

i just went for support and memories, and i got to see my sister walk across the stage!!!

im so proud of all the work shes put in over the past year or so, and im sure even better things are coming her way!!

5/16/2025:
staying in a hotel tonight... :0

there was a pretty bad storm last night in my area with winds so bad, we got a tornado warning!!

theres trees knocked down all over my street and even a downed power line, and now we have no power or internet at our house...

we get to stay in a hotel tho, its not the cleanest but it's not disgusting. just needed a couple disinfecting wipes

hotels make me nervous, im very much a germaphobe and i never know how clean something is or when it was cleaned last. im also always convinced theres a camera somewhere. theres a weird glass thing on the ceiling next to the light in the bathroom that seemingly has no use, which i do not like...

im actually enjoying the change in scenery a bit since i spend so much time in my room, even tho im not the biggest fan of being away from the place i feel most comfortable. im only a few streets away from home, so ill be alright :3

they have a pool here as well!! i think im gonna take a dip when im done writing this, i havent been swimming since early summer last year

speaking of, summer is coming around again, and im pretty excited!! i spent most of my time outside exploring my neighborhood last year, and id like to do that again this year. id like to find a nice little spot to hang out on my own, preferably somewhere forresty hehe

i really love being in the woods, my grandma used to take me and my friends to this cute little grassy area in the middle of the forest by a campground we used to go to, and the forrest always reminds me of those days. we used to have picnics and just kind of play with each other, i even had an entire fake wedding with my childhood friend back there hehe. unfortunately, he ditched me at the altar (a.k.a the cornfield)...

we used to call them 'adventures,' and id love to go on some adventures again!!!

since my phone has a pretty nice camera now, id like to make a page dedicated to all my deer photos ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡

5/15/2025:
feeling nostalgiac...

i spent a LOT of time on neocities around 2020-2021, and i've recently discovered an old website that i was like, obsessed with

dokodemo was one of my favorite sites, and i was heavily inspired by their layouts. i was also heavily jealous of all their cool widgets and graphics. i really liked toro inoue at the time, so of course i adored that aspect as well

i also loved allyrat, their site was different back then as has changed quite a bit, but its still adorable to this day!!

these sites are still lovely, and i still enjoy exloring them all to this day, i just wish more sites had archives of old layouts to look back on!!

some of my old mutuals and other sites that really inspired me no longer exist, and it makes me kinda sad. i wonder what those people may have moved on to

whoever and wherever those people are, i hope they're well!!! their silly little side-hobby during a lockdown still sticks with me to this very day ( ˶ˆ꒳ˆ˵ )

i also wonder what happened to that artist on instagram that is pretty much the reason i started drawing. i remember hearing they were a not very good person when they were younger (which is unfortunately very common amongst those that i look up to), but i cant deny they heavily impacted and inspired my personal style and artstyle!!

every time they posted new art, i'd get super excited and jealous simultaneously

i cant find them or their art on pinterest or any social media/art platforms, i wonder if they still draw...

5/1/2025:
i had a pretty nice day today!!

today was pretty good for me!!

i did some laundry, cleaned my bedroom, as well as my bathroom!!

i actually kind of enjoy doing laundry, cleaning is actually pretty relaxing for me and always makes me feel pretty accomplished afterward. you wouldnt believe that since my room is usually pretty messy haha

my step-dad took me to pick-up some food for dinner, and on the way i saw a bunch of geese!! 3 adults, and 4 babies :3

when i was little, my grandmother used to take me to the college that my mother went to to feed the geese at the pond in front of the school. i've always loved animals soso much

i never really see baby geese outside in person, so it was super nice seeing them waddles along the sidewalk w their mama :3

i think the animal that i desire to see in person the most would be a buck, a male deer w the big horns.

i only ever see does around where i live, but ill keep going on my favorite trail to find one some day!!

i also finally completed a drawing for once!! well, kinda

i still need to render and add some details, but i'd just like to show off my progress so far!!

i'm not sure i've mentioned this character on my site yet, but this is my OC, Rosie Rebirth!!

shes a zombie, who doesnt really have a backstory yet. i've had this character since 6th grade when i first started getting confident in my art and creating my own characters. her design has gone through many changes over the years, but i think i'll this with this one for a while :3

i want to design more outfits more personalized to her, this one was based off of a jirai set i saw on pinterest, and i thought it was something she would totally wear

i've written 2 or 3 drafts for her backstory, but all of them sounded a bit stupid to me. shes been around for years and has little to no lore. literally a zombie with no cause of death...

i'll probably make an art blog and post more about my art and drawings there, and i plan to post all my rosie progress and stuff there!!!

sorry taht this blog was so much longer than normal, i had a lot to say...

thank u anyone who may have antually read this!! ( ⸝⸝´꒳`⸝⸝)

4/28/2025:
today was usper nice and super sunny!!
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today i did my hair and makeup for the first time in forever, and went for a walk today!!

it was like 70deg out, and there was very few clouds in the sky! there were a little too many cars on my street for my liking, but people and cars are to be expected.

i really wanted to see some deer since they come out on my street a lot, but i didnt see any today :(

i did see a kitty at my neighbors house!! it was a black kitty with eyes that glared in the sun... he spooked me a bit hehe

it reminded me of my childhood cat, kitty boy! he was a black kitty that followed me everywhere as a kid. he died a long time ago, but i still think about him. he was like my little emotional support cat haha

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im glad i decided to go out today, the trees out side my house bloom these really pretty pink flowers in the spring and it always makes me happy to see them!!

4/27/2025:
redid the homepage!!

i am a man of my word, and have completely revamped the homepage!!

i decided to organize a few things, and even found a cool new widget!!

right under the picture of miyuki, it should tell what im currently listening to, or whatver the last song i listened to was!! i saw this on someone's site forever ago a couldnt remember which site it was for the life of me, so i just googled it. boom. simple github link at the top of the page lol.

i added all my favorite links, and even a new button of my own! remember that button i had for a while where u could barely read the text? i kinda got rid of that one. i right remake it someday, but i think i prefer the ones i have on the homepage currently.

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i think im gonna make a new status.cafe account. i may or may not have forgotten the password to my last one, and i havent made a new account since. i didnt really feel like waiting to be aproved again. good thing i have like 20 emails :3

4/25/2025:
thinking about redoing the homepage...

sometimes the homepage feels a little bit unorganized and all over the place...i feel like it needs a little bit of organization

i tried to organize and resize the navigation section but of course managed to ruin it and make almost the entire site unavailable for like an hour. this is why i hate the neocities file editor. notepad++ luver 4ever.

i get a bit jealous of those sites with an almost perfect color pallette, im not the best at color theory lmao

4/24/2025:
long time no see !!

hello!! realized i havent posted a blog in a while . .

life's actually been pretty good, ive been super happy lately!!!

i've kinda been a no-lifer lately tho . . . i havent really done much other than sleep and play games .

i got some stuff done around the house today, in my room, the kitchen, and actually just did a bit of laundry . i hate cleaning the kitchen , so im proud of myself for actually getting to it for once .

i started playing needy streamer overload and oldschool runescape during my time away from this blog, im pretty hooked on runescape and i've pretty much been playing all day haha. i havent played much of NSO yet so i havent gotten any endings, but im definitely gonna play tonight :3 i've wanted to play NSO for a long time and im excited to see which ending i get first!!!!

i dont really have much else to talk about . . . . i hope ur all doing well !!

3/30/2025:
finally got my eyebrow pierced !!

ive been wanting to get my eyebrow pierced for SO long and i finally got it done. im super happy w it !!

it honestly hurt less than my septum, which i kinda expected. getting my septum pierced was maybe one of the most PAINFUL physical experiences of my life. pain or no pain, im in love w both piercings

i got my right side done which i kinda regret, i feel like the left side would suit me better. i plan on getting both side done anyways, so it doesnt really matter

i was supposed to go to the mall as well, but my anxiety kinda got in the way...its okay tho, theres always another day !!

3/27/2025:
really wanna get my life together...

i havent been drawing or doing really anything i normally enjoy lately, i just havent had much energy. the only thing i honestly feel like doing is designing this site.

coding is a lot of fun, it helps me express myself in a fun and creative way. i love the freedom this site gives me and neocities has become a really comfortable place for me. i have so many plans as for what to do with the site!! id like to start drawing again and document my progress, i want to make pages dedicated to underrated video games i think need to be talked about more, i want to create something that perfectly encapsulates who and what i am

as for the art, i very much want to create characters and fun little anmations, but i get so stressed out whenever i actually draw. i cant draw legs or clothes to save my life but i think i just need to practice more. i mean, if i give up im not gonna get anywhere...

tonight i think im gonna practice some anatomy and how to draw shapes and body parts at different angles. the faces i draw are cute enough i think, my anatomy just needs some work haha.

i think im gonna get back to my shrines, i want each of them to be unique but i cant seem to come up more than like 3 layout styles... bye 4 now !!

3/18/2025:
TODAY IS MY 18TH BIRTHDAY!!!!!

i didn't really feel like having an actual party, so me my mom and my sister r all gonna watch movies together and eat yummy snacks !! i dont get to see my sister much, but im glad i get to spend today with her :)

they both say they're willing to watch whatever movie i pick out, but i havent decided on anything...mainly because all of my favorite movies are pretty gory and im not sure either of them would be down to watch hostel haha.

i think we should watch Dark Night of the Scarecrow, one of my favoritest movies!! it's not really all that gory, and has a pretty lighthearted ending. i dont normally like paranormal stories, but i really love this film !

i think today will be a good day !! :3

later...

you ever watch a movie that you love around others and realise how kinda rediculous it actually is? yea...i dont think they liked my movie haha. it was one of those 80s films where the acting kinda sucks, but i honestly thought that gave it a sort of charm

i hope they liked it at least a little tho...

i havent done much today except work on the site, to be fair i hadnt really planned to do much else. im perfectly happy spending the rest of the night playing video games in my room hehe. i plan on playing a visual novel i downloaded from itch.io called Shut-In Vampire, i believe it's also a dating sim.

the artstyle really drew me in, and all the characters are super cute!! maybe ill post a review once i finish the game :)

3/17/2025:
first post!! yay !!

this page isnt really done yet so i apologise for how empty it is...but i think im getting somewhere!!!

tomorrow is my birthday, and im a bit scared. im turning 18, officially an adult. i still feel like a kid...but on the bright side, i can get a job in my state w out a permit now !! woohoo!! i plan to spend my first ever paycheck on clothes and plushies (shocker) and maybe even a few games :3